11-27-24
feeling very thankful for all that I have tbh, I have many things to be grateful for
often I am filled with feelings of inadequacy and failure, but there is much to do and those feelings serve no purpose to my goals and ambitions
perception has seemed to a recurring theme in my life lately, am I me as I am perceived? am I me as I perceive myself? what would it feel like to be free of perception, to be a void perhaps, or a being with more ambiguity? or maybe something with less awareness? who am I even supposed to be in the first place? I fear that it may be a painful experience reaching a point of certainty with this issue, I just hope I find one eventually.